this kinda feels like home. very cold home. Alex, 2024-04-062024-04-12 Dyl’s gone into town to get supplies. Matt’s still asleep and we kinda had a moment in the middle of the night, yeah we made out and lots of stuff was said and that included the l word and okay he said it first I’m totally cool with that. I got in his sleeping bag with him and that was super tight but he’s just, idk, it’s really gonna suck if he wakes up and forgets all that. Like I told him stuff about when I was little and things were bad I haven’t told anyone, not even the therapist. And yeah we were pretty drunk cos a person I won’t name got us moonshine and that kicked my ass just enough I finally spilled and I don’t remember all of it just I remember it was the first time I kissed him. Like on the lips with tongue, yeah I’m not sure who was more surprised but then he got real into it and threw me on my back and I landed half on Dyl and he bitched cos he was asleep but then started watching. I kinda just closed my eyes cos Matt was being rough and I liked it but I think Dyl got in there too. My jeans came off. Okay that kinda hurt cos we’ve only got dollar store lotion but he asked if it was okay and yeah. Totally okay for both of them. At least I think it was both of them, it hurt like a motherfucker at first then I never felt anything that good. Dyl and me woke up early. And yeah we were both totally sober and he dropped the l word and okay I can love more than one boy. I guess I should clear some shit up. We came up planning to stay with his aunt but turns out she died. The Golf will barely make it to the store and back, we had to dump tons of oil in it on the way up, we’re way the fuck up in Vermont at a campground where no sane person would be this early in the year. It’s cold as fuck but also warm. My dad runs a camping store so our gear is top. And we just keep a fire going, I mean a cop came by yesterday to make sure we’re okay but left us alone, just gave us his number if we needed it. And randomness of randomness I finally heard back from Jax. He’s close to here, he recognized the car and there’s a lot of history to unpack I gotta talk to Dyl when he gets back and Matt cos he has a place he swore me to secrecy, he’s hiding from his old man, and his grandfather on his mom’s side has a vacation spot close to here. That’s where he’s been. CPS just told him to do what he had to because there wasn’t proof enough, okay, twenty visits from police wasn’t enough because his mom wouldn’t back him. I guess he called his grandfather and they’re in Island Pond which is a cool name for a town. I think we’re done with freezing our asses off but just look at Matt. How could you not want to squish up in a sleeping bag with him? Uncategorized